I’ve been quieter than usual this week. And boy, it’s been sweet.
Week Seven of Living Your Moksha has been all about the final pillar - Be Peace. The challenge is to spend an hour a day being quiet, unplugged, and alone with yourself. A challenge indeed for an Internet junkie with a big chatty mouth. That’s me, my dears. I make no assumptions about you.
Silence may be golden but it’s damn difficult. I grew up in a boisterous family. I work in retail. I’m a fast and frequent talker. I think I may have mentioned this before. In any case, even when I’m alone at home, chances are I’ve got my laptop open or the radio on or I’m on my iPhone or I’m chatting to my mum or I’m Skyping a friend or I’m writing an e-mail to someone who needs e-mailing. Few and far between are the moments (let alone hours) where I close all the electronics, close my mouth, and just keep silence.
Even in yoga, which is supposed to be all about serenity and peace, I find ways to be noisy. I’m a loud breather, a sigher, a grunter, a laugher. Those of you who have practised beside me will know what I’m talking about. If someone’s making a silly noise in Pigeon pose, chances are it’s me. And even if by some miracle I’m managing to keep a lid on my audible racket, my mind is constantly jabbering away at me. I’ll be in downward dog and grocery lists start ringing in my ears. I flow forward to high plank and all of a sudden I can’t remember if I turned the stove off. My favourite is savasana to a soundtrack of worries about getting out of yoga in enough time to shower, eat, and get a coffee before work.
So. Much. Noise.
This week in class I’ve been moving a lot slower. Breathing a lot more, and a lot more quietly. Resting frequently. Chilling out. Lying in savasana a couple breaths longer than I normally would. It’s been a challenge, but a rewarding one. I feel way more attuned to the present moment, way less worried about what’s to come. Not to mention I’ve given up my habit of surfing Facebook right before bed in favour of reading. Actually reading. Books. Sheer heaven!
It’s been a heck of a lot quieter in here, and to my immense surprise, I love it.